I asked myself this question a few times the last days .... and here are my answers:
YES - I am this weak - physically!
I signed up for the Jillian Micheals Online Program (http://www.jillianmichaels.com/) and I started doing the fitness plan I got from there. Let me tell you .... I didn't know that I was that weak.
Here I am - already lost 75 lbs, going to the gym and I can't even get through Day 1 of my new exercise plan. I didn't know that I was lacking that much strenght - to be honest I was shocked and frustrated at first. But after some soul searching I figured that it's no wonder that I can't do all this exercises. I AM going to the gym, true - but I don't do much strenght training. Well, to be honest, I don't do strenght training at all. I LOVE cardio and I even attend one or the other class but I don't like all the machines, the muscle men there. I feel totally off place there!
But this whole experience showed me that I want to change something, that I need to change something in my fitness routine, because I want to get stronger (not only loose weight)
I am really glad that I signed up for this online-fitness-program and that I joined Paula's 30 Day Challenge (http://www.celebrateweightloss.com), cos both will help me on my way to a stronger body!
NO - I'm not this weak - mentally:
The second time I asked myself "Am I this weak?" was during vacation with my husband.
As much as I love to travel and go on vacation, I always dreaded it too, because I always ended up eating the wrong things and gaining quite some weight. I always felt bad because I made the worng choices foodwise and after a few days I felt bad about myself in every aspect. I felt like weighing a ton, felt ugly and in the end these feelings almost ruined the whole vacation.
This time it was different - I didn't make the wrong choices, I ate sensible and I enjoyed it. I even packed my workout things (clothes, dumbbells, yogamat) and I worked out in the evening.
I felt so good about myself - you could say I was proud about myself!
I have never enjoyed a vacation as much as I did this one! No bad feelings because my jeans were too tight, no bad feelings because I binged on chocolate cake - I actually could enjoy going in the jacuzzi or go swimming. And it felt great!!!!
( And I also allowed myself a lil piece of the chocolate cake - and I enjoyed it!!!)
Friday, October 23, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
The Mission starts....
To be honest I don't know where to start as this is my first attempt at blogging .... maybe I will tell you a little about myself:
My history of dieting and weight loss doesn't start today - it started long ago. I think I went on my first diet as a teeny. Although I never was overweight back then, I always felt like taking up too much space. Over the years, through growing up and college I became quite overweight and more and more unhappy with myself. I tried every fad diet there was, but never lost weight successfully and for a longer period of time.
After my 25 birthday I suddenly had that magic moment when I realized it's now or never - because my real ME was buried somewhere under all this weight I was carrying around. The funny, outgoing girl I once was, had turned into a depressed, lonely, unhappy and unhealthy woman. I changed my eating habits, tried to be more active and began to loose weight. I hit plateaus, stayed at certain weights for almost a year, battled a few crisis, but finally in April 2007 I had lost 80 lbs - I had gone from 229lbs to 149!!! And I maintained this weight for almost 2 years!
Due to developing some major food intolerances, I had to adjust to totally new eating habits and I couldn't believe how fast I gained 15lbs back - you might say, I still accomplished a lot and you are right!!!! BUT although I lost quite an impressing amount of weight, I never was into exercise much and I often didn't care about my health or what I ate enough.
Through my intolerances and some other healthy problems I learned the hard way that the most important thing isn't the number on your scale. It's more important to eat healthy and balanced, not only to eat few enough to loose weight. It's important to exercise to have a strong and fit body, not only a lean one.
I want to loose those last 15 pounds again - but I want to do it the right way this time. Living a healthy life - to get the fittest, healthiest, strongest and of course hottest (;-P) body I can get.
My history of dieting and weight loss doesn't start today - it started long ago. I think I went on my first diet as a teeny. Although I never was overweight back then, I always felt like taking up too much space. Over the years, through growing up and college I became quite overweight and more and more unhappy with myself. I tried every fad diet there was, but never lost weight successfully and for a longer period of time.
After my 25 birthday I suddenly had that magic moment when I realized it's now or never - because my real ME was buried somewhere under all this weight I was carrying around. The funny, outgoing girl I once was, had turned into a depressed, lonely, unhappy and unhealthy woman. I changed my eating habits, tried to be more active and began to loose weight. I hit plateaus, stayed at certain weights for almost a year, battled a few crisis, but finally in April 2007 I had lost 80 lbs - I had gone from 229lbs to 149!!! And I maintained this weight for almost 2 years!
Due to developing some major food intolerances, I had to adjust to totally new eating habits and I couldn't believe how fast I gained 15lbs back - you might say, I still accomplished a lot and you are right!!!! BUT although I lost quite an impressing amount of weight, I never was into exercise much and I often didn't care about my health or what I ate enough.
Through my intolerances and some other healthy problems I learned the hard way that the most important thing isn't the number on your scale. It's more important to eat healthy and balanced, not only to eat few enough to loose weight. It's important to exercise to have a strong and fit body, not only a lean one.
I want to loose those last 15 pounds again - but I want to do it the right way this time. Living a healthy life - to get the fittest, healthiest, strongest and of course hottest (;-P) body I can get.
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