Friday, October 23, 2009

AM I THIS WEAK???

I asked myself this question a few times the last days .... and here are my answers:

YES - I am this weak - physically!

I signed up for the Jillian Micheals Online Program (http://www.jillianmichaels.com/) and I started doing the fitness plan I got from there. Let me tell you .... I didn't know that I was that weak.
Here I am - already lost 75 lbs, going to the gym and I can't even get through Day 1 of my new exercise plan. I didn't know that I was lacking that much strenght - to be honest I was shocked and frustrated at first. But after some soul searching I figured that it's no wonder that I can't do all this exercises. I AM going to the gym, true - but I don't do much strenght training. Well, to be honest, I don't do strenght training at all. I LOVE cardio and I even attend one or the other class but I don't like all the machines, the muscle men there. I feel totally off place there!

But this whole experience showed me that I want to change something, that I need to change something in my fitness routine, because I want to get stronger (not only loose weight)
I am really glad that I signed up for this online-fitness-program and that I joined Paula's 30 Day Challenge (http://www.celebrateweightloss.com), cos both will help me on my way to a stronger body!

NO - I'm not this weak - mentally:

The second time I asked myself "Am I this weak?" was during vacation with my husband.
As much as I love to travel and go on vacation, I always dreaded it too, because I always ended up eating the wrong things and gaining quite some weight. I always felt bad because I made the worng choices foodwise and after a few days I felt bad about myself in every aspect. I felt like weighing a ton, felt ugly and in the end these feelings almost ruined the whole vacation.

This time it was different - I didn't make the wrong choices, I ate sensible and I enjoyed it. I even packed my workout things (clothes, dumbbells, yogamat) and I worked out in the evening.
I felt so good about myself - you could say I was proud about myself!
I have never enjoyed a vacation as much as I did this one! No bad feelings because my jeans were too tight, no bad feelings because I binged on chocolate cake - I actually could enjoy going in the jacuzzi or go swimming. And it felt great!!!!
( And I also allowed myself a lil piece of the chocolate cake - and I enjoyed it!!!)

5 comments:

  1. Don't feel bad. It's not unusual to lose some muscle when losing weight. Adding this strength training will help you get it back and your body will look better for it too! Feeling strong feels good.

    You've done so well in your journey! I'm not quite up to the Shred DVD just yet, but I'll get there. Anyway, had to check out some of the challenger blogs.

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  2. I didn't realize you had just started your blog too! We're newbies together! :0)

    Weight loss is as much about physical strength as it is mental strength. You use the weights to change your body and moderation and sensible choices to build up your determination. They definitely go hand-in-hand. I've also learned that even when I have a "bad" day, I can get up the next day and make different choices. No big deal, no huge derailment of my goals.

    On to Day 17 of the Shred!

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  3. YOU GO ANDIE! Glad you are shredding with us!

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  4. Hang in there you will get there. I don't know if this would work for you, I too do not like the weight machines actually I'm not a big gym fan at all so I bought Wii EA Sports Active workout. Of course you need a Wii but this workout is great. It combines cardio and strength training in a fun way. I've been doing the workouts for 3 months now and developing some great muscles and working out 5 days a week/I didn't even realize how often I was doing it, it's that fun and you get a break every 2 days. Anyway just wanted to send you some support. Hang in there! Drop by and say hi on my blog www.nobrain-noheache.com

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  5. Hey Erin,
    I actually got my Wii today and I got the WiiFit Plus with it - so I will definately give this a try.
    I will keep you updated how I'm doing with it.

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